What a week this week, a fair few ups and downs really this week and I really am ready for them to arrive now, I think Ive got to the stage where I have really had enough.

I finally collected my bloods form from the doctors on Tuesday and had my blood test. Katie came with me and had the nurses in stitches as she was telling them her little stories about Paul being shocked at us having twins, and that they say that mummy has eaten all the pies. She is so funny bless her - just like her dad, Paul couldn't believe it when I told him. Katie has been a real gem at home, I am finding it so hard to bend down to pick things up from the floor or empty the washing machine and Katie has been helping and never complains (well not unless she is watching a cartoon at the time), but she keeps asking me if I'm okay and if I need any help. She is such a mother hen bless her.

My feet and legs have been swollen for the last few days, so I rang the midwifes to ask them if this is normal as I never suffered with this with Katie. I was going to bed with them puffed up and waking up and they hadn't gone down. The midwife I spoke to was very good and she asked me to press my foot to see if there was an imprint of my finger in my foot, which there wasn't and then she asked me a few questions to make sure I wasn't suffering with pre-eclampsia, which thankfully I wasn't. She suggested that I might be doing too much and needed to relax more and to put my feet up. I knew I needed to relax more, but I just had too much to do at home. My main problem is that I can't sit on our settee as I am too far back and it feels like my babies are resting on my organs, so I end up sitting on the computer chair as its the only chair that is really comfortable. I can't put my feet up as it squashes my stomach and hurts so I will just have to put up with my fat feet for a while. I will just keep an eye on them to make sure all is okay.

The itching is getting worse and its driving me mad, it seems to be worse in the evening, especially when I am in bed but I seem to be itching all the time. The decorators are due this week and I was dreading them letting us down. I wanted to be able to spend time with Katie this week doing lots of things she wanted to do, so on Wednesday Katie and I tidied her toys up and sat playing with jigsaws and learning her alphabet. At the beginning of the week, Paul decided to take Thursday off work and take Katie to Blackpool for the day and we were going to see the lights, so we were all looking forward to it. Paul was worried about me walking around Blackpool for the day, I didn't tell him at the time, but all I was worried about was whether my waters would break or whether I would start having contractions whilst we were there. I knew if I told him he would suggest us going elsewhere and Katie was really looking forward to it so I didn't mention it.

Unfortunately, Wednesday evening the decorator called and asked us if he could come round on Thursday, we just couldn't believe it, we couldn't say no because we wanted to get the room ready before the twins arrive. We told Katie we couldn't go to Blackpool and she was upset about it, so we have promised her to take her to Blackpool for a weekend next year so she can look at the lights. We are going to look at taking her to Walsall or Matlock in the next few days to see the lights. We did feel pretty bad as we haven't spent as much time with Katie as we both wanted to, I am finding it particularly difficult because I can't manouevere myself very well so it is extremely uncomfortable to do certain things with her and I do find that quite upsetting. Katie has tended to hound Paul as soon as he gets in from work, and although Paul is tired as he is on the go all the time, he feels guilty if he doesn't play with her. It has been hard on the both of us because we have been trying to get so much done. Katie had a birthday party this week, and went dressed as a witch and she really enjoyed it.

I am finding driving so difficult now, so much that I am considering stopping until babies are born or only making journeys where I really really need to. My mum is still doing my ironing for me which is a massive help, I really hate ironing at the best of times, but its freed so much of my time up so I can do other things.

The decorator turned up on Thursday morning and he had the wrong bottom half of the paper, so we ended up having to trawl around the diy shops looking for the paper we wanted, we didn't find it and ended up having the paper that the decorator had chosen, luckily the paper matched really well. We ended up spending the rest of the day as a family so I think Katie enjoyed it. The decorator came again on Friday to finish off and Katie and I popped into town and we were looking at toys / clothes etc and I ended up buying nappies etc for the babies and Katie chose some earmuffs for herself ready for the winter.

The most annoying thing this week, other than the itching is my non existent pelvic floor muscles. I think the babies might be lying on my bladder, so although I seem to be going to the loo every 5 minutes, I am now leaking all the time and am having to change my clothes / underwear two or three times a day. I am wearing sanitary towels to help, but to be honest it seems to be getting worse, I actually thought that my waters were breaking slowly because it felt like a constant leak. I can't even bend down or walk without leaking and that I really do hate. I can put up with all the other things but not this, so now I just want to have them.

I rang my doctors on Friday to see if there was a slight chance that my blood test results were back, I know they usually take a week, but I thought I would give it a try. I couldn't believe it they were in, the receptionist told me to contact my midwife, but as I am consultant led, and only ever seen my actual midwife once in the last 8 months, I didn't have her telephone number. The receptionist then informed me that I needed to see the duty doctor about my results. So 5:30 on Friday evening, I went to see the doctor and she informed me that my midwife was going to send me to the Pregnancy Day Care Centre because of my blood test results. Apparently, my midwife had received the test results on Thursday and hadn't bothered to call me. I informed the doctor that my home phone had been unplugged over the last couple of days due to the decorator, but they had my mobile number and neither of us couldn't understand why my midwife hadn't phoned me or left me a message on my mobile. My doctor has told me I need to keep taking iron tablets, but I told her that they keep making me sick so she has now changed them, I'm a bit weary about taking the new ones and to be honest I didn't even know that there were different types of iron tablets otherwise I would have got them changed earlier.

I have to say that I had an appaling time with midwifes when I was prgenant with Katie, I never saw the same midwife twice, the receptionists at my surgery made so many cock ups with my midwife appointments you wouldn't believe it. I know that I am consultant led and therefore, don't need to see my midwife as much as I would if I was having a single baby, but the service I have received from them has been really poor. I am so mad that she hasn't bothered to ring me about the Pregnancy Day Care. I was that angry, I actually forgot to ask the doctor about my results. My doctor has informed me to ring the midwife on Monday morning to discuss this with her and to find out when my appointment is, bearing in mind, I could have the twins anytime. So I have now got to put up with another 3 days of itching and stratching - great, just what I need on top of leaking everywhere - at this rate I am going to smell like an old woman!!!!!!

My lounge / diner looks great now the decorator has finished, so all I am waiting for is the carpet to be laid, so as agreed with the carpet fitter, I telephoned the company to check that the carpet had arrived in on Saturday and the fitting would take place Monday afternoon. I telephoned the company, only to be greeted by some woman who kindly told me that my carpet wasn't in and that they don't have deliveries on Saturdays and bascially called me a liar and that her salesman had said no such thing!!. She wouldn't listen to what I had to say and proceeded to shout at me down the phone, well I was certainly not having any of it and gave her some of her own mediciene. I asked to speak to the Manager and found out that she was the Manager!!, she told me to cancel my order if I wasn't happy, great customer service I said. Eventually, she decided to listen to what I had to say and we came to an agreement and she finally caved in an apologised and said that this was not her normal course of action and that she had had a very bad morning and taken her frustration out on me!! a 36 week preganant woman with twins eh. Its a good job I had such a bad week, that she got it back and I didn't just cave in and cry. Well if I wasn't stressed before this, I certainly was now.

I've put on about 6lb in the last week so I have put on just over a stone now, which isn't too bad for saying I have two little ones in there. Some of my friends who have / are only having one have put on 3 stone, so I have something to be thankful for.

Well tomorrow is my scan and clinic appointment so I will find out if I am going to be booked in for a c section or not. Although I didn't really want a c section, I've not got to the stage where I don't care, I just want to stop leaking every 5 minutes and having to have a shower twice a day. I am really tired now, especially in the mornings and I know its because I am not sleeping well at night. Not only is it uncomfortable (which normally I can put up with), but everytime I move, I leak aggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh, so I am now having to sleep with an old sheet underneath me, I am itching like mad and to top it off I have heart burn galore. I think because my iron levels are low its making me feel really tired, its that bad Im just about falling asleep when I visit the toilet 10 times per night. So all this is making me want to have them NOW.

Maybe when Ive been to the pregnancy day care centre and the iron tablets have kicked in, I won't feel as bad, but right now I'm so miffed (polite words being used here), I just want to get them out. So who knows - well I will let you all know what happens and will hopefully speak to you all next week, if I haven't had them that is. Maybe I will find a commode that I can carry round eh!!!

Speak to you all next week.

Take care

Anita

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